Divinity Rising: All Part of the Show -

Seems the heads on my camera need to be cleaned, so no video this week. I’ll be back with some out takes next week, hopefully.

So, I recently had the pleasure of participating in a contest known as the 48 hour film project. If you’re in the Louisville area, come and see our film at Village 8 Theaters – Thursday at 9:15 pm -get tix here! Get them early! they sell out before showtime usually. Come and vote for our film as Audience Favorite “Loba” (which means “She-wolf” in spanish).

If you’re unfamiliar with this source of both stress, elation and a weird time dilation due to lack of sleep, check it out here. I had no idea that something like this would end up leaving me a little changed.

On Friday night, we sent a couple of our team members down to draw our “have tos”. These are the things that HAVE to be in the film to prove that we did it in 48 hours.

We drew the genre “Film de Femme”, which means it has to have strong female leads. We drew the character “Bert or Bertha George, the gardener” , the prop “A 3 ring binder”, and the line of dialogue, “Just tell them Joe sent you”. All of these things had to be incorporated in the 4-7 minute film we were about to create. From the time we drew these items (6:30 pm), we had 48 hours to write, develop, cast, shoot, edit and turn in.

Sadly, we were 5 minutes late.

However, we produced  a great short film!

I wrote the tale based on the native american legend about how we all have two wolves within us.  To make it very short: One is all about giving, joy, harmony, the collective, while the other is angry, hateful, selfish.  I played the role of an insane killer who thinks she is a wolf and shares this legend with the psychologist who has come to the asylum to meet with her.

Everything was so rushed, worked smoothly, but I had little time to really think about what I had written, where it had come from, and how it felt to play this role. I was just going with the flow..and lots of mocha.

Saturday night came along and we all settled in to watch the raw footage… I was frozen solid as I watched it. It really opened something up within me, and my performance terrified me.  I have to say that is was really hard to watch.  Seeing myself look so insane left me feeling…well, disturbed.

Why? Because in the past, I have been the lone wolf that wants to be a part of the pack.   Unaware, I’ve found some pretty ugly thought patterns running amuk within me, and this just said “you can’t hide from that anymore”.

There’s one line in particular that really stands out. “She wants to run with the pack…she does..but there’s just too much pain. She can’t trust them. .. So, you see… she hates what she longs to become.”

And another producer/actor in the film, Matthew Blake Wallace, and I really found the timing for this film spoton: we’d both already come to points in our lives where we didn’t want to be lone wolves and are learning to be part of a pack.

So many people say “I hate the rich”… I don’t need a  life partner…This or that company is awful…so on and so forth…yet inwardly dream of having money, love, and all the stuff they perceive as good…yet harbor ill feelings towards those that have those things.  So, if we harbor those feelings – how can we ever expect to acheive those things?

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Who is this Faith chick anyways? The chick that can carry me is my new hero.

In all seriousness, it’ s been a year packed into the last couple weeks. When the engine in the Rv died, I decided I would have faith and trust where I was led. Within two days, a miracle occured!  Someone that I met in a bar two years ago found me on facebook and added me as a friend. He saw my status about finding alternate transportation and offered me a car! (FOR FREE!!!) It was such a blessing!  So, back on the road, I”ve been able to keep to the schedule of getting Cody involved with summer day camp, and keep the Show going! Speaking of shows, Sub Rosa: The Gypsie Courtyard has really been growing exponentially every week! It’s so amazing to see so much local talent coming together to make it what it is! Check out the recent interview that I didabout Sub Rosa and my other projects on Derby City Film Chat by clicking here.

I’ve really been finding a new found trust and faith in what Spirit has spoken to my heart. Everything that I have needed has come into my life with record speed lately.  I was speaking with a friend about it last night and it really comes down to a few simple steps.

Ask.

Surrender.

Be Willing to hear the answer.

Be Still enough to see the answer.

Receive.

Follow.

When we approach life in a state of surrender and service, we find our cups running over with boundless blessings to help us accomplish our goals.

I’m in the process of getting my video camera cleaned, so I have not made a new video for this week. However, I wanted to share a video I made of my friend Ulysses Jess Sandidge in  my RV before the engine died.
Enjoy!

I also wanted to share some random quotes from this last month’s journal, as I haven’t done that in a while.

“It really is great to be reminded that all that exists is this moment and we choose in every moment which way to travel with our thoughts.”

“Who am I to hold back anything? I am human and our purpose is to give to each other.”

“Strobe light sky with lightning.Mother nature gives it to me hard and fast in quick spurts. The rain is coming down.”

“The seeking soul will find a hole from one place to another in search of what they wish to know.”

“I look back over the journey I’ve taken – the trials, the tribulations, the rites of passage – and I realized: I asked for it. I asked for it all, and here I am something new, but still me.”

“Here we are in Heaven, surrounded by beautiful people.”

“Don’t trade your soul for a pebble

Or play games with that ole’ devil

Just stay true to your heart,

and you’ll win right from the start.”

“This past year has really led me crawling, clawing my way to creating my own boundaries – to close down to being an individual again – full of my passion, full of me. For I am a world, and what I allow into this world changes me.”

“Sometimes, I cry.

When I take a look at what you said

And hear the ghosts within my head

and realize I don’t have a bed,

Sometimes, I cry.”

“The first step to life, is to realize you’re dead.”

“What we are at our core will ripple outward into our life.”

What about you? What miracles have you noticed in your life in the last year? How have you grown? What revelations have rocked your world?

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So, the zombie shoot pulled off without a hitch! I couldn’t have asked for things to go any smoother!!

Divinity Rose in her furry chaps

The preparation leading up to it was exhausting! I hosted Sub Rosa, the Gypsie Courtyard monday night  where we featured Ben Evans of Yert.com, who had hilarious episodes to share with us. In addition to that, we featured Mike Wright’s music and some talented acting by Jon Adams.  Some amazing filmmakers also showed up and shared some of their work,  and  it kept me out late.  I got just a few hours sleep before I had to get on the ball picking up items from sponsors and getting everything ready for the shoot. With help from Taylor, I was able to get it all done by about 2 in

the morning….So, I got about 4 hours sleep and then had to be up at 6 am to get out the door and pick up a couple more items such as the generat

or and Heine Bros coffee before heading to Lagrange. We arrived about 9 am and I didn’t return home until about 1:30 am the next morning, because of clean up and then dropping off equipment and items after the shoot. Needless to say, I was pretty exhausted.

Everyone on the set was amazing, though. I am so truly blessed to have had such a beautiful group of people on board. They really made the project a  HUGE success. Everyone had something beautiful and awesome to contribute.

Over the next couple weeks, behind the scenes videos and photos are going to show up here, but here’s one of Kri, Headdy and I gathering the items to transform ourselves into wild hearted fun lovin, zombie herdin cowgirls!

One of the reasons, I’ve come to a place where I was able to make this video and have such an awesome experience is because I faced my difficulty trusting others. Film is such a collaborative process that you have to be able to have faith in the abilities of those helping you and trust their know – how.  It was such an amazing opportunity to witness the power of a group effort with people who trust each other.   You have to let go of control and move with the day.  What is something that you want to accomplish? What’s something you have to let go of? How can you let go of control and trust in the vision for your life and where it takes you? Do you have problems trusting certain people or situations? What would you find most freeing?

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Love, light and blessings to send you through your dream as Divinity rises within you.

Well, I’m gearing up for zombies. For those of you that don’t know, I am in performance duo called “Doomsday Lover”. It’s about week until we shoot the zombie western for our piece  “The Dead Walk the Earth”.    If you’d like a preview and to hear the track live, check us out at Diamonds Pub and Billiards this Saturday at 9:30 pm.

This video is kind of a big deal for me.  It’s the largest I’ve directed/produced with a full cast and crew, livestock and an external location on a gorgeous 500 acre horse farm that offers trail rides. I’m really excited about it. The cast includes Tony and Myself, The Sirens, Rani Newman, Danny O day, an ovw wrestler, and an array of other beautiful souls! It’s quite studded with musicians and other local shining hearts of art!

As busy as I’ve been with Sub Rosa: The Gypsie Courtyard and getting ready for this shoot, I still had some time over the weekend to get away to a local park with my friend, Taylor.  It was nice to be out in nature. I really needed it.

Here’s some clips. Enjoy!

One thing I’ve really learned as a producer of live and video events is to learn to let go of control issues – the constant changing and shifting world of entertainment will certainly teach you to live in the now.  It’s usually by letting go that I am given what I need.    What about you? How can letting go of control help you in accepting the gifts flowing towards you?  What kind of “have tos” have you put in place that are blocking you from realizing your dreams?   What about foam fighting? Wanna take me on? Let’s do it!!

Hola!

I’ve really been on the go the last couple weeks, and I’ve got some great news to relay.

I’ve really been blessed in the last few weeks with PROGRESS.

I’ve been quietly paying attention to what I see unfolding in my own life and all around me….That’s how dreams work, you know. They percolate within us and then begin to flow forth once we give them the freedom to do so.

What is that I see?  A beautiful dream -

1) In our city….

I see a beautiful dream  unfolding in Louisville – I meet so many amazing people with such beautiful individual dreams that this past weekend was even more powerful as I met with many in one place who are willing to embrace and support each other.  It is so good to see more people realizing the importance of celebrating and supporting local business and creating a strong community.  It is so important to be a part of a strong community that can sustain itself.  Are you a part of  Mighty Kindness?

Check out this short video to get a feel of what a beautiful day it was:

And in case you didn’t know, May 15th has been declared “Bike to Work Day”

2) In the lives of my friends:

My friend, Jason, got his insurance and is branching out more and more with his own roofing business! Congratulations! Also, major props and a Happy Birthday to my friend Mike Wright, who has  completed his first experimental short film, Transcendence. I was honored to perform in it (and so was Cody!)

Check it out:

3) In my own life – After a year of hosting The Speak Easy, I’ve changed the name to Sub Rosa: The Gypsie Courtyard. In commemoration of the old name, we gave out almost 100 Makers Mark mason jars etched with the words “Speak Easy Social”. The kick off at our new venue, Diamonds Pub and Billiards, was a huge success. You can read more about it and see a video of some of the acts at the Sub Rosa blog, where I also post and pass along Louisville arts and entertainment news/opportunities. Everyone had a great time, and the acts that turned out were all amazing. An array of comedy, magic, music, poetry and even the Great Baldini showed up to hammer nails into his face.

Check out this small sampling of the featured poet, Danny O Day, and featured music group, Serpent Wisdom ! Everyone also enjoyed the featured movie, Fangs for the Memories.

Rv Update: I got the brake pads replaced on the RV – HOORAY! It still needs some more brakework done, but it is mobile again. I’m almost ready to begin accepting sponsorships.

So, what’s been up with you? What evidence have you seen that your dream is unfolding all around you? What kind of dream are you allowing to billow forth from the very core of your heart? Please leave me a comment and let me know what evidence you’ve found (no matter how small)… Then cling to that evidence and plow ever forward!

It’s true….In May, I’ll be shooting a music video for Doomsday Lover’s “The Dead Walk the Earth”… I’m super excited and so is the cast/crew – we could still use a couple zombies, if anyone wants to come out.  It’s a full day shoot during the week, though. I’ll be a cowgirl…and I will chase you. It could be fun….I will haunt your dreams for weeks. Like I said – Could be fun.

In addition to this great news, I’ve been asked to Emcee a film screening during the most awesome Peak Summit music festival! Derby City Independent Film Collective will be showing films on June 2o from 7 – 9 pm, and I will be  hosting! It’s bound to be great fun! Good music, indie film, and good people – at Saint’s in St. Matthews.

It keeps rolling, though – I plan on taking Divinity Rising, the web video show to the Mighty Kindness (give a ) Hoot-enanny! If you’ve not made it to this heartwarming and exciting annual meet of music, arts, local organic farmers, healers and other awesome groups in our community, YOU SHOULD join me! It’s FREE, has KID STUFF, GREAT music, and some of the kindest hearts you’ll ever meet I’d like to ask some of you questions on camera – At Willow park  in Louisville, Kentucky – Check out http://www.mightykindness.org

Later in the month, I am especially honored to join Karma Bums at Diamonds Billiards in St. Matthews for a night of mind blowing music and poetry and all around good karma – come partake, my peoples!!!! May 23 – Mark your calendars!!!!

Speaking of Diamonds,  are you ready?…. It’s a new home for Louisville Speak Easy!!!

And Speaking of the Speak Easy – it’s time for a NEW NAME!!!!!

There’s lots of reasons, but it’s an all around great opportunity to really give our gatherings a name that suit their magic, allure and sparkle

MONDAYS at Diamond’s Billiards, We’re kicking off Sub Rosa – The Gypsie Courtyard!!! Our gatherings at Carly Rae’s on Thursdays WILL continue (under the new name!)

We’re mixing it up with lots of new opportunities to celebrate local wandering hearts of art!!! I’ll be doing paid featured spots at BOTH locations, plus some other neat opportunities etc coming up

Come to the grand opening  May 11 ,  our first monthly showcase there! Let’s make it a huge deal and really start sending out some wonderfully awesome ripples in St. Matthews! I’ll have more on this next week!

And in June – Pick up a copy of The Highlander to read the article Danny O Day honored me with!

I hope that all of you are really enjoying your wanders of wonder….and with all this “Speaking of” let’s speak of wanderers. I’d like share my ode to wanderers. So many people get dogged on for being a wanderer – but would you play any game without first checking out your terrain, resources, strengths, and  collecting useful items? So, why is it a bad idea when playing the game of life?

What’s the good word? Give me at least ONE thing that is pretty awesome that has shown up in your life or that you have given yourself lately. How can you spread the contagious Kind Flu?

Yesterday, I rode to Lagrange, Ky with Norm. Norm is my “go to guy” – a producer, an art director, a camera man,  a talented artist and clearly a male.   At least, I’m pretty sure he is.  I mean… I’ve never checked to be sure. Sometimes it’s hard to tell gender in the Artist  species, but he shows all the usual male markings, and his  obstinate insistence in using unnecessary technology further confirms my suspicions.

We headed down to Lagrange, Kentucky to check out a farm for our upcoming video, “The Dead Walk the Earth”.  This is the first video that will be released on Diaries of a Godling. We’re all uber excited. You are, too. I can tell! My super psychic senses are tingling.

You can get a summary of our trip and the mapping skills of the great I-Phone  with this enlightening video.  What’s your favorite technological obsession? What is your biggest frustration with technological obsessions?  Do you look forward to the zombie western?

I give you: The Manly Obsession with Gadgetry

Also, we started stripping wallpaper in the RV only to decide that we want to replace some of the walls.  Cody ripped a miraculous critter shaped patch! His comments further express manly obsession.

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