Let’s Do Away With Doubt
Wednesday, December 14th, 2011It was good to be back on stage with some beautiful people who I’ve “grown up” with as a performer and creative soul. There was so much talent, and I was able to get some great holiday shopping in, supporting local talents like Solidarity Photography, Tader Head Crochet, Vintage by Design, and Gaither Ceramics. Check them out! It’s not too late to contact them and get some great affordable gifts of your own that your loved ones will treasure.
Brian Schlosser took some great photos of the event, but I have to say: God knows why acclaimed spoken word artist and good friend Truth B. Told looks like he’s stripping but I thank him for it!
This was the first ever Sub Rosa event that also had kids in attendance for part of it, and it was so great to have families there together. I can’t believe how awesome the kids all behaved. Little Chris’s dance alone convinced me that kids should have been involved long ago.
I also have to give a very special shout out: On the same night of the reunion, Subrosian, friend, and amazing glass artist Derek Gregory went and got himself hitched up in NYC! (He moved up there for love over the summer). CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!
I know I’ve been quieter than usual over the last few months when it comes to newsletters. I stopped doing regularly scheduled shows in May so I could take a much needed break and refocus my direction. I’m attempting to get back on a weekly schedule of communication with some pretty cool news on the way. As my sparse communications have probably conveyed, I’ve dealt with a few difficulties in my downtime.
I throw myself out over and over and over again. Sometimes I get burned, and I recoil for a little while before leaping forward again. I don’t see the world like a lot of people do. I look around me, and I see potentials. I see opportunities. I see…too many possible paths. So, it makes it hard to move forward sometimes, because I know there are other paths I could take. I can spend endless amounts of time asking for inner guidance on which path to take, and then feel certain that’s the way I’ll go. Then, something happens. I might hit criticism or another opportunity or a moment of doubt. (That word needs a terrifying sound affect to go with it ALA fifties scare film.)
When I find myself hesitating on moving forward with something I want to do, it’s usually because of one of the following: Something has not fallen into place yet, clicking with clarity and I’m not sure of the next step; Some changes need to be made; or I’m hesitating in doubt. (*insert sound effect)
When I have a clear destination in mind, I am usually led to the next step, although the timing isn’t always as immediate as my impatient inner child would have it. I try to remind my impatient inner child (IC) to play more while awaiting instructions. A lot of times, the IC would rather throw a tantrum and cry until it gets its way. I’ve learned this behavior stems from a fear that if it doesn’t come RIGHT NOW, it might not come at all, which really means it stems from doubt. My IC often jumps ideas and dreams up lots of new projects and ideas to avoid moving forward on one that it already created, worrying that it is not good enough or marketable enough or…..
I’ve almost lived
so many times.
False starts;
Unfinished rhymes.
Why do I doubt
what’s within
could be seen without?
It is said that faith is the key to reaching a desired destination, but for that to happen, you have to make a clear decision about your destination and agree to see it through. If you don’t know what your destination is, you can’t know when you’ve reached it or gauge if you’re on a path towards it. It may be that some ideas are not worth following through based on collected opinion and effort vs reward. However, you have to put it out there a little to determine that. I’ve had some very clear destinations in mind, but needed some time to put the steps in order and get over some of the negativity I’ve faced.
I have found that just about everyone I know has some sort of dream in mind or a good idea. It seems that they are waiting for someone to give them permission to move forward on it.
Well, consider this your permission to move forward!
Make a list of things that would need to happen to see it done, and then decide which one would be easiest to move forward with. Start small and build from there <3.
Let’s do away with doubt together. What do you say?
Love, Light and Blessings to see you through your dreams <3
