Can we talk about addiction?

The undending fiction

that we are not what we want to be?

Misconception for a fee

That we need anyone or anything

A pill, a pipe, a one night fling

to fill our aching hearts.

But it’s a problem made of parts.

For a moment, please, open your view

For you be me and I be you.

The seduction of a saintly soul

Can rip a wide and gaping hole

By entangling them within

An addiction to humanity

To tried and true profanity

Just a smidge insanity

wrapped around polarity

And don’t forget familiarity

Or sponsored highs in clarity.

To highs, lows, death and art

Love and standing heart to heart

Or anger, rage and hearts apart.

A friend, a foe, and drama, too

A house, a car, a proper shoe

The options are none too few.

Attachment. What am I afraid I can’t live without?

If your thoughts replied anything besides “myself”, Clap and shout.

You’re not alone in your addictive bout.

We’ve all been there. We’ve all had fear of losing something while we’re here. It all comes back to only me, and can you believe it? That’s actually free.

Floating along in the open sea of creations to feel and do and be,

I wrote all this when I got a clue that…well, I’m an addict..and so are you.

So, this former addict, boozer, play boy I met turns out to be one of the most thought provoking and inspirational cats I know. I mean, come on! How many Christian authors do you know that write books full of sex scenes? Blog posts about loving prostitutes?

Try as I may, I could not get him to do a photo shoot in drag for me, so I interviewed him instead. This week, instead of my usual column, I’m going to share an interview with a recently acquired treasure. His name is Marvin Wilson, and he has an awesome blog at http://www.inspiritandtruths.blogspot.com. Stop by there today and read the awesome wonderful interview/write up with me yesterday that you can check out. If you’ve been wanting to know more about me for a while, here’s your chance (AND I released some new photos there). And here’s your chance to know more about Marv. He is author of a couple books that are worth checking out, Owen Fiddler and I Romanced The Stone, which both deal with addiction and redemption. As someone who’s had her share of addictions in the past, I’d recommend them We’ve All got our addictions from drugs to alcohol to other people to a certain way of thinking to religion to branded toys, clothes and more. So set your mind modes to open and awestruck and dive right in. You won’t walk away empty minded.

Divinity: What was it that brought you around to your faith? What made you take a step up in your beliefs?
Marvin: I had a powerful spiritual experience. A direct encounter with Christ. God spoke to me when I was so down, so lost, so broken, so empty of any self-worth - I was a crack cocaine addict, an alcoholic, a liar, a sexual and ethical whore - the result of my addictions - that’s what happens to even formerly honest upright individuals like I had once been - the drug sucks out your very soul and leaves you an empty shell wherein live the insatiable hungry ghosts that drive you to fulfill your bottomless cavities of desires no matter what. When I read the account of Apostle Paul’s conversion experience in the New Testament I can relate. God didn’t strike me blind for three days, and I was not a mass murderer like Saul was, but the experience was tangible, extremely powerful, and just as real - perhaps even more real - than making love. I wrote all about this in my first book, I Romanced the Stone.

Divinity: How would you differentiate yourself from other Christians?

Marvin: Well I am not religious. Not to say all Christians are religious, far from it. But like any other spiritual path that has become “organized” and “dogmatized,” the original spirit-filled message of the founder of the faith, the Avatar upon whose teachings the faith is based, over time invariably gets replaced with religion. A blogger friend and Christian whom I respect very much who goes by the blogger name of (and you see why I JUST HADDA love her from the get-go) “Free Spirit,” posted this most apt and lucid distinction on her blog, With Unveiled Face.

Religion is what happens when grace is misunderstood. Religion is man’s attempt to seek God. Grace is being found by Him.

Well said, Free Spirit!

Divinity: What is your intent with the Free Spirit Blog? Where would you like to see it go in the future?

Marvin: Well, here’s the sub-title blurb taken right off of Free Spirit-

Free Spirit promotes spiritual growth and excellence in the craft of writing. And we have a good time. Laughter taps into the deep well of the soul.

That pretty much sums it up. Where do I want to take it? Far as the universe wants and receives it, I reckon. I just write and network and cross-link and inter-link and continue my ministry of the spreading the WORD of the free unconditional non-judgmental Love of Christ. So far the message is well received and the readership is growing rapidly. I have readers of all faiths, spiritual practices, etc., as well as plenty of secular readers who profess no faith at all but just enjoy my brand of spiritual writing, my sometimes off-beat and very often humorous take on things. Everyone is welcome at Free Spirit. It’s a come-together and come as you are place, a cosmic Law of Attraction gathering cyber hall for intergalactic fellowship between like minded souls and those seeking truth and freedom.

Divinity: YAY! Cyber halls for intergalactic communion! Any plans for a new book?

Marvin: Oooh yeah. Lots. I have the first sequel to Owen Fiddler about two thirds done, a comedic detective whodunit, titled Detective Snoop. I posted a short story on Free Spirit on Halloween featuring this new nutcase character I thunked up, titled Detective Snoop and the Case of the Selfish Thirsty Vampire. He’s quite the charismatic sleuth, this guy, you’ll love him in spite of his sexist male chauvinist ways. The short story was well received, and I think the novel will be a hit. It’s short on spiritual messages, at least for this writer, but I do sneak in some valuable nuggets about not paying any attention to Satan lest you grant the (bleep)head power that he’s not worthy of. For the most part though, I just want to make people laugh with this one.

Another novel I’m working on is a spiritual quest for knowing God set within a romance, titled Heaven’s Slope Ascended. A multi-talented mountain climbing black chick meets a white rock and roll star and they fall in love but there are many issues. It’s really about me and my wife, but totally extrapolated out there into the generic. Anyone will be able to relate at some level.

Then another pet work in progress is this story about, well, here - let me paste the ad blurb for our readers-

What if a homeless, smelly, ugly unkempt old man had a hug so powerful it could cure cancer? Cause a prostitute to stop hooking and seek true love? Shake the demons of addiction free from a junkie? Make a fundamentalist Christian want to hug and love a radical terrorist Muslim and visa versa? Cause the blind to see? Raise the dead to life? But rare is the beneficiary of his divine hug - nobody wants to come near him out of fear.

I’m going to have a holy rolling ball writing that one. Just started it, but it’s tops. And I got more. The stuff is just pouring out of me. Owen Fiddler will be a series.Owen Fiddler will be on the big screen one day. Bet on it. God is just drilling me, shooting me full with inspirations faster than I can possibly key them in. Pretty cool.

Divinity: Would you say that writing your books has been a healing ritual for you?

Marvin: Oh most definitely. Well especially I Romanced the Stone. Writing that book was extremely cathartic and healing. Painful though, I mean having to write the TRUTH about just how far gone and lost I had gotten was brutal. But the pain was worth the gain. I’m all healed, happy and better now, so now I just write out of joy and love and a desire to share.

Divinity: What would you say to recovering addicts or hopefuls? Not just substance addicts but addicts of all sorts.
Marvin: Read my books, for sure. I Romanced the Stone will inspire you to either A) never go down that road, or if you already have, then B) have faith that there IS hope for you. I made it. So can you. You CAN be cured. Cured. Not rehabilitated, not tied forever to endless AA 12-step meetings, no. Cured. The cure is called God. Re-connecting with the ALL. And also read Owen Fiddler, my latest novel. The reason addicts become addicts, and you are right, Divinity - addiction comes in all forms - the obvious: alcoholism, substance abuse, smoking, eating disorders, etc., and the not so obvious: nagging depression, love of anger and rage, constant low self-esteem, and so on - all of these are indicators of a disconnection from God. You are trying to do it all yourself, and you are being selfish about it. God is within you, but you see/feel/hear IT not because you are too wrapped up in your tiny “little self,” your fearful little itty bitty “me against the world” mindset. Even mega-successful (materially) people get strung out on addictions because they operate with a set of “self-first” ethics - not realizing that their TRUE self is none other than God. Jesus said, “Is it not written in your law, I said, ‘ye are gods?’”

And if J.C. sez it, I believe it.

(May I humbly ask that you start clicking “digg” at the bottom of the page or give me a thumbs up on Stumbleupon or add my articles to other bookmarking sites to help me gain readers? Thanks! My new years goal is to increase my readership! The more the merrier!!!)

I’ve learned something very disturbing. Babies are born without kneecaps! Holy God! Please, oh please, pray for the kneecapless babies of the world! Please, please pray to the saint/angel/god/goddess of cartilage generation! Ask that these poor poor little helpless beings are given kneecaps!!!!!Without your help, these suffering suckling souls may never know what it’s like to live like normal people with knee caps! Forward this to all your friends, family and strangers! With every forward, the high priestess of Patella will grant a baby a kneecap. (That’s right. One kneecap.) That means we need a lot of forwards!

In addition to that, my friend alerted me to an even stranger phenomenon! If you look at the obituaries in the newspaper, people are dying in alphabetical order! It’s true! I checked! I was never aware of this proof that the universe has such a divine order! Don’t forget to forward this or people will keep dying!!!

That phenomenon caused another friend to question why the alphabet is in the particular order it is anyways! As an individual, perhaps I prefer my A to be in the middle of my phonetical symbols. Perhaps the letters don’t like being forced into a particular order! It’s the MAN trying to keep us down!! I suggest the formation of ALF, Alphabet Liberation Force, STAT! With every forward, we raise five cents to help free the alphabet.

What the heck is going on around here? What does all this mean? It’s signs of the times! It’s the end of the world! This is not a joke. It is something very serious that I want to bring to your attention. That’s right…in less than a minute, the world will never be the same. In less than 30 hours, we’ll change the date! Can you believe we’re almost a decade into the new millennium? Prepare to rewrite checks, letters, and more as you remember it’s no With the death of 2008, we have an opportunity to let go of things that are holding us back. Many start off a new year by making resolutions about what they want to become. Why start of a new year by thinking about all the things you’re not happy with? What a terrible habit! No wonder we all turn to self loathing behavior. What do you love about yourself? Let’s spend a good amount of time on New Year’s celebrating that! What keeps you from focusing on those things? Allow me to suggest you think about things to let go of. If we let go of the things holding us back, we often naturally unfold into the things we love and dream of.

Instead of making a list of things you want to be, try making a list of things you love about yourself. Now, make a list of thoughts or things you want to let go of. Put them side by side and see how letting go of one list will aid you in enjoying the other more.

Now,

Help save the world! Save alphabetical freedom! Save kneecapless babies! Save people from falling for any more hype! Forward this email, and you can help people let go and embrace the coming year! That’s right! Don’t forget to forward this to EVERYONE you know. If you don’t forward this, another baby might be born without kneecaps!!!

Yesterday, I suffered a very traumatic experience disguised as a blessing. My son’s grandmother took me out clothes shopping. I was ecstatic! It’s been years since I’ve really gone clothes shopping for myself. What a blessing! I didn’t even know where to start. Well, turns out we started with the basics, and by basics I mean TORTURE DEVICES.

We headed to the mall for bra shopping. That’s right fella’s. Bras, Boobie Slings, breast resters, tittie transports, bosom bindery, mammary manacles. God, I hate bras. Or, maybe I should say Bras hate me. I just bought new bras last spring and they’re near useless. Upon suggestion, I visited a new store. I was told they have nice durable bras, even pretty ones, for the blessed . How’s that for a slogan? Bare-able Bras for the Blessed!

Anyways, I walked into the store with a small amount of hope that I could find something better. MAYBE even something I liked. However, at the clerk’s prodding, I agreed to get measured ,and that was formidable enough. I’m not the girl-y girl of girls. I’m rather embarrassed at my ignorance of much girl stuff, and I hate to ask someone I don’t know to have to wrap something around me. She measured me, and I sighed in exasperation when she told me 36 DDD. TRIPLE D? God. They’ve grown.

However, the bra she handed me as she pointed me towards the dressing room didn’t quite work. I got in there and cried out “OH NO NO NO ! This doesn’t work for me!” I was bubbling out over the top and around the sides of it. No one should ever have to see themselves in such a way. It was a horrifying experience like some science experiment gone terribly wrong, and my cries for help went unnoticed. After my freak out, I made my way back to her counter. To make a long story short, she went and found one in the back for me to try on so she could order one that fits. She helped me in sizing that one, and as she left the dressing room she said “A lot of women would kill to have them.” I replied, moaning and yelling over the door “They can have them!! I will mail them to them! I don’t wannem..*cry *cry *cry”
Final verdict: 36 G….G for GODda…i mean, G for Great Gonzagas of Glorious God love! These are no longer a nice part of my body. They are obviously a parasite that is continually feeding off of me and will NEVER STOP GROWING! Quick! Somebody measure me, and see if I’m shrinking in height! It’s obvious we should all collectively pay a cosmetic surgeon to reduce them. I’m quite sure they’re just waiting to gain optimum size for world domination.

Go ahead and laugh. You won’t be laughing when they grow beyond their larval stage and tear themselves from my body and wreak havoc upon your plane!! How would you feel if your world were run by a bunch of boobs? Oh wait….

That’s right. Laugh away. I forgive you., but just when you thought there was a story I couldn’t make a parable out of - TADA! Here it is!

Blessings truly runneth over in our lives…and sometimes we don’t notice that they are quietly growing behind the scenes. Sometimes, when we see how blessed we are, it may lead to a troubling realization that we have been quite blind to that truth! If we take a moment to step out of our haze and measure them, we realize they’re all over the place and we can’t contain them - So, what do we do? Embrace them? Find a way to become a bigger container?.Share them?.(Do NOT use this parable as a way to say I should obviously share my boobies with you via nude pictures).

Just as it’s true for blessings, the same is true for some little thing we don’t want to see bout ourselves. It can grow quietly until it’s out of control and falling out all over the place and affecting those around us!

I know that many blessings hang in the air around you just waiting for you to see them and call them out. Go ahead and take a moment to measure them. Leave or send me a comment with some blessings you recognize or maybe even have been overlooking as you focus on the trials in your life instead. I’d love to share the bliss of your blessings with you.

So, I missed a newsletter last week, because my computer “ated” it. I’m sorry. I was a bit down about losing the whole thing and let that be an excuse to slack off and not rewrite it. I assure you it was a quite brilliant piece about existing as energy - but ONWARD HO!

Let’s play pretend. “OOOOH! ROLE PLAYING!” You shout. Well, okay - sure, something like that. This week we are role playing with - *insert dramatic music- Discipline. (Not cuffs and shackles discipline, you freaks!) We’re going to pretend we’re ships on a sea.

We are a sea of information within. Our life is a navigation through information, and our outward travels reflect our inward travels. Our ability to be in a state of happiness and fully in the moment depends on our ability to consciously navigate our ships. When we fail to take time to be still and clean out all the stimuli we take in throughout the day, our ship is left to bounce around on choppy waves. ( see earlier column “Eww, what’s in the pool” ). When we are not disciplined in guiding our thought power, we let our energy run wild through the information within us. Instead of navigating to thoughts that serve us and what we want, we sometimes find ourselves in dark areas.

!We’ve gottah’ problem capt’n! We can’t seem to steer this thing!”

(Please forgive my poor impersonation. - I am quite boggled on how to type a Scottish accent. Send me any suggestions.)

When we meet a person or experience a situation, we immediately begin to store information about them within, making them a part of our inner landscape. If we have a problem with someone, we store that “negative” information within us. That negative imprint becomes a part of us, much like an anchor that continues to keep a ship from straying too far. We find our thoughts keep being pulled back. Every time we allow our energy to run across the information of that person, it will bring up conflict within us. In other words, every time we see that person again or think of them, it will bring us to a “conflict”. The same thing happens when something triggers a memory of a certain experience. To put it simply - It will make us feel icky.
“You just sunk my battleship!”

FEAR NOT! Your ship hasn’t sunk, yet!You can find smooth sailing again! Conflict is a chance for healing. Once you realize you feel bad, you have been given a point to navigate towards. When you find the information that is making you feel bad, you can say, “oh”, and come to a different understanding of the person or experience. Then, you can let the anchor go. You have to deal with it and find a way to be okay with that person or situation. The more you can forgive and love unconditionally, the less you’ll find yourself held back by these anchors.

“Right, so what’s this go to do with whips and chains…errrr….discipline,” you may be wondering.

There are so many things to pull us off center - away from what we want - to tempt us to fear, to distrust, to not love or accept, to not follow our hearts ….How can discipline help us to navigate better? With discipline, we can make sure we find time to be still, and choose what direction to steer ourselves. It is much easier to navigate still waters. With discipline, we can learn to choose how we store information. Every time we feel tempted to label a situation, it helps to remember that the information will change us forever.

Sound serious? We make ourselves with the information we choose to hold onto. No matter what masses of people believe/create/discover your experience is limited to your beliefs/what you choose to observe and patterns are formed from previous experience. How can we begin new patterns that will shape a world that we can love?

I believe in all of you and know that you are all exactly where you are supposed to be at this very moment in your journey. I know things are being brought to the forefront of your mind. Can you find a way to change the way they shape you by trying to react differently? I pray that you will see the steering wheel in front of you and find yourself headed for the shores of the most beautiful dream you can imagine. I know that as we increase our discipline in shooting for the stars, we’ll find our ships lifting from the waters and floating ever upward.

Last week, I spoke of settling back into me after floating around the last couple years. Remember, as you encounter new things and seek to process them: it’s all part of the journey: all part of the show.

A spiritual journey through life is like being in a theater. You sit in the audience watching the players on the stage. You enjoy the show, watching it time and time again. Every time you watch it, something new speaks to you or stands out. You start to hear things that call to you.  However, eventually you become bored with the same old show. You start to dream of being one of the players on the stage and what it would be like. You get bored with dreaming and become restless. Some things in the show start to give you the idea that there might be more. Your eyes begin to wander around the room, and you see a curtain you never noticed before. You walk over and pull it to the side, revealing a staircase. You look around the theater, which is all you’ve ever known. You look at the players on the stage going on with their show. You take a deep breath and leave, following the staircase upward.

You arrive on another level of the theater. On this enclosed balcony, the show looks quite different. You find new people who are having lots of drinks and discussion. The show goes on below, but the people in the box seats are having their own conversations, talking about the show, forming their own opinions, telling stories, giving their impersonations of characters in the show. You find this intriguing! You no longer sit quietly in an audience. You get to discuss your ideas about the show, and all the thoughts you’ve had as you’ve watched the show so many times come pouring out. You find that you are not alone! Others have thought or felt the same things!

You get to explore things about the show you may not have considered. While you’re busy with all your exploration, the show plays on below. At some point, you realize you’ve explored ideas quite enough and begin to wonder just how it all works. You’ve talked about theories long enough, you want to know. You notice a door. After passing through it, you find yourself backstage. You can see the players waiting to go on, the stage hands moving props about, people changing costumes and a staircase leading upward towards the lights. You poke around backstage, get to know the players, get insight directly from the sources, and even head up to the catwalk to explore how the lights and other mechanics work. You take stairs down to see hydraulics and machinery at work below the stage - the grunt labor behind the show. You learn all about the gears behind the show. Once you’ve done this, you return to the audience to watch the show again. Instead of boredom, you find a newfound awe as you think of all of the things that are working together to present the show. And since you know so much about it now, you can take a part in the show…any part you want….or even run it.

Dear beautiful, primal, magical creature. I wish that you could see what I see when I look at you. You astonish me. I can’t promise to know what you should do or to be here forever. I can promise that I love and believe in you. Thank you for lighting me up.

I’ve caught myself on many occasions breaking the rule of “being”: worrying about what I should be, striving to become something better, instead of just being who I am. I feel like I am arriving back into myself after several years of intense spiritual journey by being honest about who I am and what I want as an individual rather than thinking about what I should be, what others want from me, or trying to be MORE. Looking into a dear mirror friend of mine and seeing his shining beauty despite what he calls his “mess” allowed me to realize that my mess is probably not as bad as I think either. I am in the process of kicking the demon in the butt that says “not good enough”.

Can we stay positive and keep our faith when there is so much chaos surrounding us? Can we trust that it is all leading us closer to ourselves? The first step to accepting ourselves is to own up to what’s ours. We have to stop putting blame and focus on others and be willing to accept that certain ‘problems’, etc are of our own making. I am so grateful to have come across the information imprinted upon me so I can release it and no longer be bound or tormented by it.

If we’re all just information flowing in and out, then anything and everything can and will change. So, what can be made in the moment? What joy can you find there? Are you okay with yourself? Can you accept yourself? Can you stay at a point of observation, aware of the lessons presented in each moment? Can you deal with you? Can you embrace you?

I’ve learned that the journey to ascension is not to leave behind what we are. It is to know ourselves inside and out and to be FULLY what we are. You have to let go of the traumas of your past life before you can begin a new one. Then a realization hits: You know what? I GET to be ME! No one else gets to do that. No one else gets to explore what it’s like to be ME or to create what I want to create. The whole purpose for me being here is to BE ME….to FEEL what it is like.

As my love flows forth into the world around me and returns blessings upon me, I once again open up to trying new things, working with and accepting all about myself without judgment - I am free.

This week, I made a list of things I love to help honestly remind me of myself. Why don’t you do the same? Measure yourself by your loves.

I love Cody, feeling pretty, being in nature, dancing, singing, laughing, babies, hugs, being wild, being barefoot, rolling around, being ‘right’, learning new things, creatures, exploration and discovery, boobies, “be-ing”, colors, music, exercise, being mischievous, providing and caring, cuddling, the beach, the forest, being fit and healthy, being in love, accomplishment, friends, worship, playing dress up, photo shoots, storytelling, being brilliant, shining my light, helping others, acting in love, knowing me, family, being content, daydreaming, nightwalking, confessing, undressing, bizarre chaos, divine order, the unknown, the forgotten, the ancient, the new, wisdom, flying, swimming, doing, seeing, knowing I am what I am and that’s good enough.

Will you be a random collection of items or a beautifully arranged collection of loves? I am deeply touched by this quote. Adlai E. Stevenson: “The spiritual man tries less to be godly than to be deeply human.”  In a journey of learning to be more godlike, how can we be more deeply human?

Where the heck are my keys?
I’m flying through the land of broken dreams

Because I’m looking for my keys:

The ones who will open me

Free me, See me

and Maybe love me anyways

Drawing closer to someone that has stood out in my perception for about a year now has presented me with a key, leading to moments of complete clarity and honesty begging acceptance. I’ve been faced with some very clear reflections about myself that were unexpected and even quite unpleasant to see, but recognizing them allowed me to release the bad information stored within me. In order to release things within us, we have to experience them or see them clearly and name them

How can we free ourselves from the fears we hide from? By accepting the keys presented to us. Keys are people, things, and experiences that open up the doors within us. They might make us uncomfortable, but it is our future beckoning. Open up and let things touch you. The more I open up and let things touch me, the more amazed I am by myself and those around me.

Be careful as you open the door! We’re like those overstuffed closets that no one wants to clean out. When the door is opened, stuff comes tumbling out into our life for us to deal with. We see things about ourselves that we have to decide to get rid of or put neatly in their places. As those things come tumbling out, the events surrounding us seem chaotic. In moments of transition, sometimes all we can do is stand back and accept the avalanche, and wait for things to calm down before we try to observe and analyze what’s fallen from the closet.

This is what has happened in the last few weeks. We’ve all been presented some hefty keys. You may have found yourself in a move or transition of some sort - with a change of relationship, job, home, or health. These were not your every day slowly developing changes. These were changes that seemed near immediate. Things were there one minute / gone the next, and some of them were things that we felt defined us. We have been through a true chaotic shift, and it feels like the epileptic divine hand of inner evolution has had one hell of a seizure while holding the snow globe we live with in. Anytime we are ready to accept something new about ourselves, we turn a key and our external circumstances shift to reflect that change. If we allow ourselves to fear change or try to reject it and cling to the old, we face more discomfort. However uncomfortable these changes may seem, they lead us somewhere that feels better. Despite the bad taste, they’re just the medicine we need.

See if you can rest and wait for the items to stop tumbling so you can clearly see what you’ve been hiding in the closet. What is your heart is saying to you? The love within begs to be released.. it is far too large for you to hide it the way you do.

Accept the things that fall in your path, but do not fall for the illusion that they can stop or hurt you. Just listen to what they are saying and see how you can release anything keeping you from becoming what your heart calls you to be. What are the keys being presented to you right now? Will you accept them and turn them in the locks within yourself? When you open the closet, I’m sure you’ll realize there aren’t really any monsters in there, only a lot of stuff you’ve been hiding instead of dealing with. Once you face the pile and clean it up, you’ll feel oh so much better.

At our very core, we are love, and the natural state of being is to let that love flow into the world around us. Instead, we allow fears and doubts to keep us from doing that as they present an illusion of lack, incompetence and need. The truth is that the love within us is abundance and when let loose, will flow into the world around us.

Love is giving: Remember the difference between lust (want, need, desire) and love. Love is giving to others and to ourselves. Love does not need to own or possess in order to give. Love has no expectations of return.

Love takes responsibility. Love takes responsibility to care for self and others, even when it is clear someone is at fault. Love does not care who is at fault. Love only flows forth to create something better, although love often uses honest communication to do so and helps people create something new rather than bailing them out from self created experiences.

Love does not judge. I have learned that when we judge things, we are asking to experience them so we can gain understanding. Love accepts without judgment, but love understands that acceptance is different than toleration. Instead of judging, love knows when to let go.

Love never stops. Since love never stops, we have to give it a direction to flow into. Clearly set up visions of yourself and what you want in your life (rather than focusing on what you don’t) and begin to flow in those directions. Stick to the boundaries you created and never hold back. Never give up, but pay attention to ways you can tweak or adjust your vision to fit you better.

Love sets boundaries - Since love is always flowing, it needs boundaries to flow within or it will be all over the place and never affect a creation. Create a vision of what you want your life to be. Draw it out. Now look for leaks: Who are people you give attention to that do not fit your highest vision of your life? What are habits, experiences that are holding you back? Love does not mean always being nice to people or letting them walk all over you. When this happens, it’s okay to let them go with a blessing and refocus your love to flow in a direction that fits your highest vision of yourself.

Love learns from and uses all for good. When we have a vision of ourself, (of what we’d like to be), we begin to move towards becoming that vision. However, we often have walls in place that stop us, so we draw experiences into our lives that will break our current structures so we can be freed from them. If we fight to avoid negative experiences, we avoid moving forward. Instead, ask what you can learn, and what fear or doubt they are giving you the opportunity to move beyond and react differently to.

Love guides us. When we are clean enough to see what we truly love, we envision a future us based on our loves. We send forth information creating the future self, and that entity sends information back that calls us towards it. It’s okay to think things and find new truths that eradicate old truths because it’s all information. It has to flow through you for you to get from point A to point B.

Open your heart and move toward your dream. Let no troubles stop you. Accept what flows without fighting and consciously shift your love towards what you want. This is your becoming.

Last week, I spoke of entities created within ourselves by building walls of fear. The resulting lack of energy to a certain part of us creates illusions of need, being powerless and expecting others to provide our needs in parts of our lives. These critters’ existence depends on our belief in their illusions, so they draw our attention to experiences that support their illusions, so they can continue to feed on our good energy, growing nice and fat. Yum: Inner Black Holes.

As we break down walls, more energy flows through us, lighting up another critter, and we begin to free ourselves by recognizing them. We recognize these inner patterns by paying attention to patterns in our experiences or the people we are drawn to. Don’t freak out! In order to let go of these patterns, they have to surface for us to experience.

Rule #1: No one is doing anything TO YOU.

You have created these entities, and they are your inner children. Would you scream about your children doing something TO you because they are acting needy? These entities aren’t trying to ruin your day, and neither are the people in your life that reflect them. Don’t take it personally. They are just being. An entity flowing in the pattern of pride is pride and can’t help but be pride. It’s not a demon out to get you. It is your thoughts flowing in a certain pattern, which is determined by walls you’ve put up. Instead of blaming, fighting or lamenting, work on redirecting your energy. It seems that these spirits or people keep us from becoming our dream, but we really only stop ourselves by giving them control. Admitting that we are responsible for what we create in the world is a huge step in ridding ourselves of mini-monsters. What are you expecting others to do for you?

Spirits become what they are filled with. If you really want a bothersome spirit or person to go away, feed them love, and they will either transform or wander off to find someone who will give them the type of emotional food they need. Fill yourself and others with ideas, books, movies, people and experiences that support what you want to see in your life. BE the suggestion, and back it up with actions. Without actions, all you have is a charm and charms wear off. We find ourselves freed from undesirable spirits by breaking down walls and letting energy flow in a new direction.

When we block the flow of energy within, we need to take it from elsewhere to create our lives. We attack, accuse or hurt others, and we help to feed the demons within them (and ourselves), strengthening their walls. When we give only love and blessings to others (and ourselves), we help to break down the walls. Once the walls are down, the flow is free to create what we TRULY want in our lives, so we have plenty to give to ourselves and others. As we increase the flow of love outward, we transforms the world around us. We become SOURCE.

What have you put in place to keep your heart’s desires from flowing towards you?

How can you transform your needs by giving to others?

I know that if you would let yourselves give love without fear, each of you would shine brighter than 100 suns. When a sun stops shining and giving, it becomes a black hole and takes instead. The brightest sun will become the most vicious of black holes. Do you want to shine or suck?